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Sunday, February 9, 2014

Confessions of a SHALLOW skinny biotch who is dating a chunky dude by WLI

Lets face it, in this day and age you will get dumped if someone is sexier than you. Honestly, no one cares about that "inside that counts bullshniz."  It's a lie people tell others to make them feel better about themselves. It's calling someone ugly, but trying to be nice about it. It's a backhanded compliment.  If you were not so close minded you would have just came out and said "you're sexy," "you're hot," etc.  But since you want to be "nice" you say something like that.

I'm 4'11 and I weight 90 pounds. I'm a tiny little thing. It erks me that when people see my boyfriend and I together they think I must be with him because he has a great personality.  F society. F jealous people who put these idea into people's heads.  Here are some things people think when they see "a chick like me" (I'm a 10 on the scale, darlings. Don't think otherwise) with a guy who is fat.
If you think I'm some ugly slob or think that "only fat people date fat people and thin people only date thin people" you are wrong. This is to prove that that fat dudes CAN get that chick that looks like a model or a porn star/stripper and vice versa.
See pics of me...


It's the inside that counts - Nah. I tell him all the time, "you can't f**k a personality." You can be friends with a personality though. If you have a great personality and are really funny? I don't care. Are you a perfect 10? Nope. not a 10? You have been friendzoned. I have never told him this "inside is more beautiful than the outside" bullshniz lie. People tell their partners all the time "I don't care how much you weigh, it's the inside that counts" "You're beautiful on the inside" "beauty fades, but inside beauty lasts forever" Forget that. I legitimately think his BODY is sexy.  Outside beauty can last forever Sophia Loren, Meryl Strep, Dolly Parton, etc. are still beautifu. People don't need that dumb shniz "only inner beauty lasts forever" feed to them because outside beauty can last forever,too. Fat guys can be sexy as heck just like muscular guys can be.  If my partner gained 100 pounds, he would still be sexy as he is now.

I only love him because he has a great personality
. If I saw him around, I'd take him home before even knowing his personality. I wouldn't take him home because I loved his personality and how "funny he is"(because fat guys are ALWAYS sooo funny and that is the ONLY way they can get that hot chick everyone wants, right?) but because he's freakin' hot. Lots of guys have nice personalities... but they are a 9, not a 10 so they get friend zoned.

He must be really funny and makes her laugh. Yeah, he does. But that's what friends are for. If he wasn't hot and did not fit my standards, I would have just friendzoned him.

He must be really nice. Yeah he is. But I've seen chicks date guys even though they are a-holes just because he's banging hot. People put up with more if someone is hot. It's not depression, or not wanting to be alone, or security, it's because they want to screw THAT all the time for the rest of their life. I'd date my lover even if he was an ahole simply because I wanna screw him for the rest of my life.

I have some kind of fat fetish.I'm not a chubby chaser who only dates fat guys. I've made out with skinny guys, muscular guys, etc. I think abs are very sexy, but I also think fat is sexy as well. Sexiness isn't a body type.

I have low self esteem. Psss. I have high self-esteem. I do not have low self-esteem like people think. I must have it since I "settled" for a fat guy is, right? Wrong. I have HPD mixed with Narcissistic tendencies. I want perfect. I am perfect. I'm always right and I wish there were more of me in the world. I'm not afraid to die, I just don't want to die because I wouldn't be around anymore and I know people need me and will not ever meet anyone as amazing as me ever again. I'm a 10 on the looks scale Anytime I walk anywhere I can pick up a guy. I could walk into a room and nab every guy there,  In fact they always become obsessed.)

I'm NOT a shallow biotch. I must be a nice person who gives the nice guy a chance is what people think.I hate how people assume I'm NOT shallow because "I'm dating a fat guy." How can I be, right?  PLEASE.I'm the shallowest biotch on the planet. I ONLY date the best. I care what I look like on someone's arm and I care what they look like because I know how people judge. I don't want to be a 10 dating a 2 just because he's "nice" I'm just not ignorant and I KNOW that SEXINESS isn't limited to ONE body type. I'm a Leo with Histrionic Personality Disorder. I even have a blog about it. I wouldn't EVER date an ugly guy or a guy that was less than 100 % perfect in looks, and in bed. I find flaws in every person because I NEED/WANT a PERFECT boyfriend. Especially looks. He has to be a perfect 10. So THAT argument that a 10 on the hot scale would only date skinny/muscular guys is invalid.

I'm dating him because he's "safe" -"he's ugly and fat;therefore, he's a "safe" bet because "no other girls would want him, so there's no threat of him cheating/leaving..." Nope. I'm dating him because he's hot and sexy as heck. he gives me amazing Magic Mike style lapdances and looks JUST as sexy as they did in the movie.

It's because I'm nice. I'm a sweet heart and people assume I date underneath me(I'm a 10, he needs to be a 10. Not a 9 or an 8 and definitely not a 2) because I feel bad, or don't want to be mean. I am nice to people who are my friends. I friendzone people I do not want to date. I friendzone a lot of guys because they are not 100% perfect. Plus, I get bored easily so I can not date someone that is not sexy, hot, and isn't good looking.

I'm fat and don't care that he's fat. I'm obsessed with myself being thin. I will never get over 100 pounds. I personality do not want extra weight on myself. As you can tell, I don't think that fat=sexiness;however,  I personally feel I look better thin.

Fat people aren't adventurous in bed, and I must not be either... I  love caressing and cuddling with him. Yes I love to cuddle with him, but we also are into BDSM, tantric, etc. and we are very adventurous in bed. Just because he's fat doesn't mean we only cuddle. He cuddles with me as well.

He asked me out and I need to be in relationships and will choose anyone: I have HPD (I even have a blog about it) and an avoidant attachment style and he is the only person I show a lot of love to.
:Avoidant Attachment Style (nothing wrong with this, as long as you know yourself well enough to be open about it)
Some information @ Calm Mind Open Heart
TYPE: DISMISSIVE-AVOIDANT
Top Ten Signs Your Partner is Avoidant
What is Your Attachment Style?
The Fearful-Avoidant Attachment Style
Understanding The Avoidant Personality
Avoidant Attachment Characteristics
Relationship Attachment Style (Part 2): Insecure Avoidant Attachment Pattern
ADDICTION TO "ALONE TIME" ‐‐ AVOIDANT ATTACHMENT, NARCISSISM, AND A ONE‐PERSON PSYCHOLOGY WITHIN A TWO‐PERSON PSYCHOLOGICAL SYSTEM


BTW:
I Idolize people like Kim Kardashian
Lady Gaga
&
The Fashion Industry (but I do not buy their clothes as they use animals for their fur)
Fashion Models
I am very conceited and care a lot about my looks
I love makeup and wear it all the time <3
I love dressing up in wigs, and cocktail dresses
I always have my hair perfect
I always have my makeup perfect
I have HPD. I love attention from guys and women. I can't date an ugly person. However, he is the only guy I would marry and have children with.  I push this fact because looks DO matter to me. If there is one thing wrong with someone, I can't even attempt to date them. If after we are dating if they even do something that is awkward or weird, I have to break up with them.  I need and crave the "perfect" man. I found him. He's chubby. The reason I say this is because people assume I'm not a shallow person simply because I have a chubby boyfriend. Chubby has nothing to do with how hot someone is.
None of my 3 relationships lasted because I didn't WANT to date them. I guess I wanted to convince myself I wasn't shallow, but I am.
Like this woman says ..."I need someone that makes my koochie talk."